Tomorrow morning I head south to the Deeper Still conference in Birmingham, AL, where Beth Moore, Priscillia Shirer, and Kay Arthur will be teaching, along with Travis Cottrell leading worship and some other Lifeway folks pulling things together. It is interesting that 55 years ago today, Rosa Parks refused to give up her seat on a bus in Alabama and fueled the civil rights movement. I wonder if God is planning on setting 14,000 people free from strongholds such as fear, anxiety, and addictions to live life free in His Spirit.
And if not all 14,000, maybe at least one. I have dealt with depression and anxiety my entire life, and although God has been transforming me in many ways and the depression has been better, I still have anxiety. Tonight it is overwhelming. I have been very depressed today because I still miss Cindy terribly. There have been many reminders of her and my heart just plain hurts. I am anxious about getting things done before I leave and worried about some aspects of the trip, not to mention all the uncertainties that lie ahead when I get back. (Of course after today’s mini-blizzard, I threatened that if it is sunny and warm down there and snowing up here, I might not come back) 😛
Sometimes I tell myself to go back and read my own writing. And what my writing says is to read – and believe – God’s writing. Yes, this is a tumultuous time and God created us with emotions that are able to swing all over the place, especially when we are hungry, anxious, lonely, tired, or in pain (with my neck I’m 5 for 5).
BUT… here is the truth…
God is who he says he is. He is sovereign – NOTHING is outside his control. He has a good plan and will carry it out. God is good, wise, loving, and faithful.
I am who God says I am. I am his child, worth dying for, loved more than I can imagine.
So, tomorrow I head to the airport with my Bible, ipod full of Bible teacher podcasts and worship music, Charles Stanley’s book “Finding Peace: God’s Promise of a Life free from Regret, Anxiety, and Fear,” and a bunch of tissues.
Perfect love drives out fear 1John 4:18Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. 7 Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. Luke 12:6-7
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity.” Jer 29:11-14
I’ll let you know what God does (if I come back 😛 )