I just have to put up a quick post today to Praise God. I keep thinking I need to analyze and figure things out and teach others, etc. Well, that’s my agenda, not God’s. His thoughts and ways are higher than ours, and He can work whenever, however He wants without us being able to explain it.
This last two weeks have been so hard; many times did I do the “ugly cry.” First dealing with the trauma and loss, questioning God, even this morning missing my baby girl Cindy so much. I just can’t believe she is gone and I’ll never be able to hold or kiss her again. And, having been unemployed over 2 years, what now?
But today I am having a good day. Mulling over the idea of taking a trip, I keep thinking that I should be doing something productive. But I’ve been so comforted and encouraged by Siestas and friends online, I keep going back to my laptop. Listening to Travis Cottrell‘s “Jesus Saves Live” CD. God is working in me.
He is the God of all comfort. I still don’t know exactly why he let Cindy and I get hurt. I took my feelings and questions to God honestly and openly. I have trusted him, even when he did not answer. I thanked him for helping me directly and through others. And today it seems he is rewarding me by giving me a glimmer of hope about what might be ahead, both in the next few weeks and in the future.
I don’t have the slightest clue how God does it, but he can comfort and heal anyone in any circumstance at any time. There have been times in the past two weeks where, even in the midst of grief, I felt his peace, and just a few minutes ago I swear I felt him holding my hand. Oh how I wish that everyone hurting could sense his presence in a tangible way.
God is the great I AM. Jesus is Lord of all. He has sent his Holy Spirit to constantly dwell in us. He is worthy of all our praise. Not just when we feel like it. Not just when things are good. Always.
And lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age. Matt 28:20b, NAS
Day and night they never stop saying: “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come.” Rev 4:8